This Post Got Away from Me

It seems like every time I sit down to write this Urban Fantasy novel, I wonder, is this the time when I'm going to run out of gas?  Is it now that I will exhaust every idea I ever have and collapse in a lump failed dreams and forgotten hopes?

That came off a little more dramatic than I meant it.  Let me dial it back a little.  Hi there, hey, what's up?  You're cool?  I'm cool too.  I fucking hate how stressful writing can be.  Why did I choose this hobby?  I could have gone with any number of safer/easier hobbies, but no.  I had to choose fiction writing.  Bacon damn it to hell.

Should I explain that joke?  You look lost.  Okay, my brother and I created a new inside joke.  The idea is that you take a Word document of the bible and you find and replace every instance of God, the Holy Spirit and Jesus with Bacon, Bacon, and Bacon.  This gave a whole new line of expletives.  Bacon damn it.  Bacon Christ.  Holy mother of Bacon.  You get the idea.

Obviously I'm feeling some apprehension over Lost Lamb.  On one hand, I feel like it's going really well and that the story is developing nicely.  But then there's this lurking fear that when it's finished, someone other than me and my trusted writing group has to see it.  Or worse, no one will see it at all.  Which has been the case with my novella.  No one is reading it.  Maybe it's the wrong season.  Maybe it's the phases of the fucking moon--I don't know.  But everyone says, "Oh Steve, I bought your book.  Oh no, I haven't read it yet.  Why?  Oh I don't know, probably the phases of the fucking moon.  I can't take two Bacon damn hours out of my Bacon damn day to do this thing for you because I want to know what stupid shit is happening on American Fucking Idol or Bacon damn Survivor or whatever stupid shit people watch these days."

This post went in a direction that I didn't want it to go, just so you don't think I'm crazy.  Hopefully I'm not.

Just Checkig In

The chapters of Lost Lamb seem to be going quite smoothly.  It seems like the more I write, the easier writing becomes.  I got about 1000 words yesterday and it was like no big thing.  It just happened, which was cool.  Anyway, this novel is on its way through chapter four and I'm really quite pleased with the progress.  I feel like all I really do is create a world and some characters and let them do what they want.  It's interesting because sometimes I don't want them to do something, but they do it anyway.  It really feels like the words come to life.

To no one's lament, I've decided to seek traditional (paper) publishing for my next book.  Just talking to so many people that don't like the ebooks and the fact that paper books still outsell digital formats by a factor of 3:1.  That's a big-ass factor to me.  The other thing that's appealing is the opportunity to someday expand to larger media.  No one will ever make Bad For Business into a movie--it's an Indie novel and they're a dime-a-dozen.  Sure, I think it's good, but it can't reach as many people as it could.

It's unfortunate that I've made this decision, although I will hopefully still be publishing to the internet, my focus is now my paper books.  Oh yeah, actually sold my first book to someone I didn't know yesterday.  Someone in UK bought my book!  Anyway, I thought it was great.

Fire Under The Ass

I find that the more I write fiction, the less I have to punch into this journal  Hopefully that's because I'm reaching some kind of rhythm with my writing.  Hopefully, forming a good habit of it is paying off.  What has really motivated me the most to keep writing is how people have been reacting to my novella.  Everyone is so damn excited--it's great.  Someone even said they couldn't wait for my urban fantasy piece to come out, that's a pretty damn cool thing.  I'm so glad I did this.

I'm going to get back to working on chapter 3 of Lost Lamb while the keyboard is still smoking.

Bad For Business is out!

My first novella is now available in digital print.  The link to the Smashwords page follows, it'll still be a few days before it appears on Amazon Kindle (it needs an ISBN number) and other retailers.  If anyone would like a copy, the list price is modest, but what I need more than sales are reviews.  I need honest reviews, I can't stress this enough.  Anyway, happy reading.

https://www.smashwords.com/books/view/436459